Saturday, September 19, 2009
Nurain
Monday, September 14, 2009
Time To Love
Something proud to say is that I bake 4 type of cookies last weekend. It's for Raya and I absolutely adore my cookies. It's so tasty but I don't really eat it because I don't eat things that I cook or bake. I don't know why.
That's all for today!
Friday, September 11, 2009
With a Tear Inside
Accept the look that I'm giving you.
The unexpected love.
The ended story.
The past story.
On the First Week of October we have our CBL (Challenge Based Learning) and the week after we have our Finals (which is bad!) and then we have our RAG day (which is not that bad).
So what I'm trying to say is that, although we don't have monthly test, we still have all this small things that I don't like. Truthfully, I don't mind the once a month monthly test because at least I will study but like this is pretty bad.
My brain is pretty rusty now so absorbing things are a bit hard. Why is it sad this week. Well everyone knows, my favorite member in 2PM, the leader Jae Bum quit 2PM after his myspace controversy.
It's sad but I think the decision is made so it's stupid for me to be sad. It's not like I know him! Haha. So that's all for this week!
Friday, August 28, 2009
For Muzik
Why is today is a fun day you ask me (even if you don't ask, pretend you did). Well, firstly today I went shopping with my mom and I got a lot of things (well, kind of).
I bought this shoes which is super hot (is that a way to describe shoes? But whatever), 2 jeans, 2 t-shirt (one of it looks like Gong Min Ji's shirt and another one is just cool), one blouse (which is super cool) and belts. I know it's not that much but I'm very thankful for it.
But I still want some things, for example;
1. Yellow Crocs
I know I have one green one but I love the yellow. Therefore, I'm going to get one when I have the chance. My dad said that they're selling it at RM80 somewhere. Gonna go there and get one of this.
2. Converse Shoes
I don't really want black. I want the one like 2NE1 is wearing which is very cool. But they have heels which is super duper cool.
3. Park Jae Beom
Really need this one after the hot performance. NO wonder they won the Hot Performance Awards. The new hair cut is nice.
Gonna end it here. This holiday is frustrating. That's all I'm gonna say!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Silk
This is like the first time I'm going to reveal my storyline for Silk (which is the theme for this year's CeMa). This is actually a script for the sad which I made - which was rejected. Actually, I just read it again tonight and I find it amazingly interesting.
Please ignore my grammar because I know, English is not my best subject!
I close my eyes.
A silk.
What does it mean?
He sends me the silk years ago and after 10 long years, I can never figure it out. What does it symbolize? Why did he give it to me?
Maybe my questions will be answered today. After 10 long years, I am finally going back home. It is not like I don’t want to go back, it’s just that, I’m scared.
I’m scared of the…
Truth,
The fact that I left them alone when they needed me the most.
After waiting for what seems eternity, the LRT finally arrives. She steps in the LRT and finally found the perfect place to sit.
Why did he give me the scarf? I remembered the day I went to the city to pursue my dreams. He ran after me despite the fact that he was wheezing due to his asthma, just to give me this silk and I don’t know why.
I closed my eyes again and figment of my memories appeared before my eyes.
He was cleaning his closet and found a golden silk.
“What is that daddy?” she asked him innocently trying to find an answer. “That is a silk scarf. Do you know that the silk worm takes approximately 72 hours to make one whole cocoon? I want you to be like that. I want you to work hard to achieve your goal,” he answered back while patting her head.
She smiled.
So that’s what he meant. He wants me to work hard to achieve my ambition. So he wants to remind me to work hard to achieve my dreams.
But that’s not all. I remembered that he said, “When you achieve your dreams just like the silk worm, I don’t want you to be the moth. Don’t ever forget the cocoon that transforms you into a beautiful butterfly.”
I could never understand what he meant. Until today. I just realized. What he meant is that when you are successful, you shouldn’t forget the important component to your success. Like in my case, the important component is him, himself.
When he gave me the silk scarf, he wants me to remember that I have to work hard to achieve my dreams but when I’m successful, I should never forget about him, about my family.
If only I realize this earlier. If only…
The LRT will stop at (insert place name) in 10 minutes. Passengers are reminded to be ready to leave the LRT.
I can make it right now. I can make it right to him now and tell him that I remembered. I am not like the moth. I remembered him and thankful to him for being there for me.
When the door opens, she ran back to her house. She was so eager to see her father. She wants to hug her father’s body and she wants to kiss his wrinkly old face.
“Welcome home,” she said as if she was expecting a warm welcome from her father. The only thing that welcomes her is the white cloth that covers the furniture.
It was too late. She is like the moth and her father is just like the silk. Plain to see but the most valuable thing in her life. After all he is the cocoon that make her into a beautiful butterfly. But it is too late.
The End
Much better than the love story, I have to say. Well, what is done is done. And I have to say that this is such a wonderful story made by me. I think I should stop praising myself. Okay! Stop Giuleta! Need to stop doing things like this.
Should do my homework now!
This is a very random post! But I don't care. Not like anyone is reading my blog!
Btw, just to tell everybody. I cut my hair and it's SO different. Don't be shock when school reopens!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Leaders
1. Kwon Ji Young - G-Dragon (Leader for Big Bang)
He is seriously a leader. He wrote a lot of songs for his group. I mean seriously look at him. He is different from the others and carry a charismatic aura when he is performing. When you watch a performance you will know straight away that he is the leader by the way he move. I mean seriously. Just look at him, how many people can work such a look. Trust HIM and only him to do such a weird thing and still looks good.
2. Park Jae Bum
One word, he's ***. He may not speak well but the way he dance and what he do on stage, you will say he's the LEADER! I love leaders! Haha. So yea. Nothing much to say about him except his hotness. As usual...
3. CL
She's just amazing. The way she perform and the charisma she carries around her is enough to make her the best female in this industries. She is the leader because she is just AMAZING! She makes everyone thinks she's cool. Why? Because she is COOL!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
No One Cries Because They Want To
One students or maybe two is diagnosed of A(H1N1) which some find very scary but for some reason, I find it funny when some parents actually stop their children from going to school. Of course the kid will find it fun to skip school but I don't think it's necessary. I mean seriously.
I think if you're meant to get it, you'll get it somehow even if you skip school for a long time. What's important is to drink a lot of water, buy two bottles of hand sanitizer, eat a balanced meal which means a lot of fruits and vegetables and just keep your immune system strong. Unlike me, who have a seriously weak immune system, you can't help it to be affected really easily, you can maybe try your best to be healthy. You know what I mean.
So be cool, calm and collected. And one reminder, don't take antiviral because you feel like it because it will make things worst for you when it becomes immune to it. So don't be too smart also. Just stay healthy and stay ALIVE! Haha.
So school have been quite hectic with me since I'm still catching up. Things are not too good for me since I'm always tired. When I say tired, I mean sleepy obviously. I don't know why I'm so lethargic. No bowel movement maybe. Haha.
Do you know I can sleep from 5-7.30. Then at 7.30 I eat and I'll sleep again until morning. Don't you think that's a bit too long. I think so and sometimes it scares me at how I can sleep so long but still didn't get enough. Maybe I got a psychological disorder or something. But whatever.
So I'm trying my best to do everything now and I seriously need a holiday. Unlike someone I know who didn't go to school because he feel sick. Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with my brother. So weak for no particular reason.
That's all for today. I just feel like updating. That's why I did!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Chemistry
I have to keep up to my standards and don't fall out you know. I feel weird talking about this but I think this is who I am. Haha. SO I went to my cousins house today. Quite fun to meet everyone again. Haha.
By the way, DBSK is on the verge of breaking up. It's like a dream come true. Haha. And 2NE1 have been winning a lot of times and I'm loving it! I mean seriously. And I found a funny picture! Look at this picture.
Taec is practically towering everyone. He's like the Eiffel Tower. Haha. Very funny! Schools starting in another 12 hours. How I need a holiday. After Fame, Plat and the workloads, I need a holiday! I mean seriously. I am majorly seriously tired and I'm getting sicker everyday.
Yes, I know, I have a bad immune system but hey, at least I got one. That doesn't make sense but it's my blog so I can say whatever I want to say. I feel like blogging about Plat but I don't want to, I think. I don't know. Don't feel like it! haha.
So that's all for today! Maybe gonna update tomorrow, next week or another month. No one knows! Haha
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Hottest Time of the Day
Very Hot Jae Bum! Haha. So yea. Then I like Jae Bum. That's all. I know totally unnecessary post about 2PM. But I seriously like them. But I don't know until when I will like 2PM because I tend to like people for shot period of time.
Wanna Play
Firstly I would like to mention about my participation in Fame the Musical which was awesome and a wonderful experience. I met a lot of new people and had fun there.
After Fame, I went for Platinum Expedition which was really memorable. I have to admit that it was very tiring and it pushes you to your limit but I have to say it was fun and I learn a lot of new things.
And now, I'm trying to catch up with my studies. Not to mention, yesterday's Commencement and Prize Giving Ceremony. It was tiring but it's a whole new experience.
Now, I'm kind of sick with sore throat, running nose and coughs. I don't have a fever though if not I have to go and check. Haha. So that's all I think. Still no mood to blog! Haha
Sunday, July 5, 2009
June
Well, firstly, the months starts with the oh wonderful holiday which I need right now. Followed by my holiday to Terengganu. Then I end my holiday with going to the Millionaire Mind Intensive Course with my father.
That course is an eye opener and made me realized that I'm the only person that can do anything with my life. So basically, I think I'm going to use my life properly.
Then fame rehearsals and quarantine. Then diving.
Diving was fun. I'm really scared at first but then it turn out to be fun. It's not scary anymore except the back thingy. That's all I guess.
I'm very lazy nowadays! So don't expect another update! Haha
Monday, June 8, 2009
Back from Terengganu
That's all I gotta say.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Miro
So what happen for the past days. Well, I wake up so early that I'm shock of myself. I wake up before 9.30 everyday during the holidays. Funny right. I want to wake up late and feel the dizziness because of overslept.
Well, today I went out with my family with is fun. Well, fun for me because I got a Coach bag and a new phone. I am happy but at the same time very guilty. So I decided to keep the money they give me everyday and make it up to them one day.
What a dream. Haha. So that's all for now. I know it's a short update but it's not like anyone is reading. By the way, I'm going Terengganu tomorrow. So don't miss me too much and commit suicide. Haha.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Save the World. Goodbye May.
On the second day, I sell shirts. A lot of people bought the shirt. At least like 75 shirts was sold. Then the next shift, I stand with Andey calling people. I actually learn to talk to people and actually successfully beat Andrea. Haha.
So here I am now, doing nothing. Bored. I'm going to make some cookies later. That's fun. Since I already have this post, I'll just combine the goodbye post with this post.
May was a really interesting month.
Firstly, I have my P.A Weekend which was fun.
I made new friends and learn a lot about stage management.
Then I have my exams which was not that bad.
It pass so fast that I actually said, "Exam feels so short"
And then we have the debate, quiz and math olympiad.
Which was fun.
For the first time, I was the time keeper.
I actually had fun doing that.
And to end this month, we have the
Save the World Exhibition.
I learn a lot during that exhibition.
And although it's tiring, I had fun.
I know June will be awesome with Diving Expedition.
Going for production's practices.
And RAG day.
Not to forget, making movies.
I know there will be a lot of stress.
But I'm ready for it.
Trust me.
FINALLY!
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!
I've been waiting for you. It have been ages. I'll enjoy you while I can. (that sounds wrong)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Hit
How sad is that. So moving on, today was pretty normal. Except the part that today is Mr. Sheat's birthday. You know I think that when you make things very differently, people will love you. For example, Mr. Sheat, he's very weird (in some ways) and very interesting teacher. Not that type of teacher where you can find just anywhere.
And look what happen, everyone remembers his birthday and talk about him. I mean some people will hate you for being different but look a lot of people will eventually like you. See that Nubi, being Whyme is not tha bad. You just need to be strong and do it your own way. Like what I'm doing.
Should stop talking now. Tomorrow is Math Olympiad. Good Luck BERUANGS!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
If I Ain't Got You
Especially my brother, Adam. He answered a lot of questions correctly. Didn't expect that from him. At least he's smart. If not what a shame. That's all for today. Is it me, or my posts are getting shorter and shorter.
I'm losing all the ideas to write something good for you guys. I want to include pictures but failed miserably. How sad am I? You know I think when I put pictures, my blog will end up like Ms. Tok's blog last year. So I think it unnecessary to put pictures.
If I make people bored, then too bad. Face it, it's my blog and I'll do whatever I want with it! So that's all for now and Nubi, cheer up. It's not like it's the end of the world. You can always call me because we are WHYME UNITED! Once a Whyme, forever a Whyme or not.
Tomorrow is DEBATE! Good luck Beruangs!
*edit
Do you know, I just realized how good looking JinHo is. No wonder, Whyme cannot be seen!
Monday, May 25, 2009
I Am Not
At 2.00 we have the debate between Seladang And Beruang. Of course, I support Beruang but they lost. Theirs is a very interesting topic which is There should be a limit for number of subject taken for SPM (or something like that). I didn't quite agree with Seladang not because I'm a Beruang but I like to take extra subjects to show off. You know everyone likes to do that. Like when you ask someone, "How many A's did you get," and then the person answered, "10 A1" and then when you get like 15A1 you'll be like, "Hahaha. I beat you. In your face dude." or something like that.
You know what I mean. It's always fun to be better than anyone else. You know what I mean because you're human too!
So moving on, today was not that interesting but tomorrow will. There's quiz and with ricochet
robots and Once Upon (something) which will be interesting. Let's just wait and see. That's all for today.
I'm so dissapointed because 2NE1 didn't perform yesterday. Why? Because their ex-president kills himself. What a reason...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Brain Freeze
Well, to tell you the truth, I love the story at first because there's Hyun Joong and everything. You know what I mean. And then suddenly I watch WGM (We Got Married) which was WAY better and I realized that the story seriously sucks. Well, I hate Geum Jan Di because I love Hwang Bo better.
And then I watch Supernatural which was 1000x better than Boys Over Flower. There's Dean and Castiel which means major double HOTNESS.
I know, I shouldn't say that. I just doesn't sound like me. Well, today I went to cut my hair. Didn't cut it short because I don't want to be triplets with Audrey and Alexandra. One triplets in the class is enough. Haha. So I trim my hair and have like some fringe thingy. So I look so weird now.
Well, maybe people won't realize it tomorrow because I'm going to pin it up. You know how much I hate my hair covering my forehead. It's not like my forehead is VERY beautiful but it's just so irritating to have your hair in your eyes or somethin.
One thing for sure, I look chubbier. I mean I am so chubby because I eat a lot. I don't know why. There's always this one time where I will eat like a lot. I'm scared at myself sometimes. So yea. I've been thinking to go for diving but not really sure which one to go.
Gonna ask teacher about it tomorrow. Let's hope there's still place. Let's just hope, ok. That's all for today. Gonna read Even So. Another nice story by Dearskye again. You know why I like dearskye. Well, because she watch Supernatural. I know that is not a valid reason but who cares.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
To Love Death
It's very nice to read it though. You will feel so happy but you'll hate the girl for sure. She's like, I don't know what to say but in her situation, I think it's understandable. I know I sound crazy because I read so many fanfiction now but this madness only comes once in a while.
And for once, it came at the right time. After the exams. Usually it comes before the exams and makes me go crazy. Why? Well, because I need to study and at the same time I feel like reading. So that's why.
If anyone interested in reading any of these fanfictions, you can leave something in my c-box since no one is dropping anything in my c-box. I've been updating for no one. How sad can I be. Well, now it's proven that I am a sad case.
That's all for today, I think. You never know when I will update again. 2NE1 is tomorrow. Can't wait!
The Past
I've just finish reading Crazy Dog. I was very disappointed with the ending. It was so abrupt and disappointing. It think it's partly my fault because I got to attach to something which doesn't exist in the story. I know it's just her figment of imagination but I can't stop myself from like it.
I know I sound kinda crazy here but you should read the story. It's crazier. Overall, I think it's a worth a read. Although I became weird and a bit emotional after reading such story, I think after 6 months, I will still read it.
It's that nice. I know. Still a bit sad about the ending. So now, I want to read, To Love Death by the same author, dearskye. She's awesome! Should read the one-shots too! There's a lot and I will read it during the holidays.
That's all for now!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Crazy Dog
I know I'm suppose to be doing my homework but no... I just prefer doing nothing or blog about something stupid. Like what I'm doing now.
Just want to share some cool quotes that I found just now.
After reading it, I think it's a bit inappropriate to post it in my English blog. So I shall just stop now!
Love Bugged.
I just have to say one thing, Solangel is one creative author. I seriously like how she writes her story and how the story makes me go crazy. One thing I hate about her is she always kill the guys in her story. Really pissing me off.
So school was NORMAL after exams. Get back our marks which makes me stress. For the past two days after exams I have loads of Chemistry and I think now, our class have chemistry with Mr. Sheat. Haha. His own joke.
Do you know that he make the lamest joke. For example, there's this one question we were discussing and they ask something about Gas Y. And he said, "So guess why." With our class being the zombies, we kinda not get it. He repeat it again until we get it, which is seriously lame.
And there's these parts in the story that I like,
"If I'm in Cinderella, I think I will be the pumpkin"
"I wonder what will happen to Cinderella if she have her period that night."
I don't think you get it until you read the story. And I'm like berbelah bagi because I don't know who to like. It's either Ven or Boe. Both of them are really cool. I mean, I like the way the author describe them.
I know that one of them will die. But I don't know who. That's the problem. I shall stop my ramblings. If not, this blog will be called, a granary of ramblings.
So that's all for today. I think I'll update later. If I have time after I read Crazy Dog. Another story which will make you die because of coolness.
I'm waiting for 2NE1. Where are they?
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Just wanted to share something
Right now, we’re a little relaxed. Giuleta is talking with Juanita while Yeong Shin is focusing a lot on the project. We listened to a few songs earlier. Like Hyesung and Lyn, Super Junior and even a little of Kim Ah Joong. Juanita is going around, looking at what’s going on. I’m not sure why I’m typing this right now, because I’ll probably end up deleting it. Oh, well.. Hmm.. *looks around* Juanita is here. Hmm.. Now everyone is reading
Irina’s demanding for her own little section. No, lah, just a little addition. Teamwork is key here and we’re all supplying that. YS’ great Photoshop skills, Juanita’s keen sense of BlackJack, Giuleta’s.. Hmm.. Supportiveness.. My great typing skills haha and Irina’s supply of pep! We can do this!!
See Nurain? We actually CARE. Haha, I know it looks like we don’t sometimes
Carry On My Wayward Son
So exams was tough and I went through it. Let's all pray together that I didn't fail any subject. Just pass is good enough for me.
Okay. So what happened for the past 2 weeks. I know I updated a bit but still. Let me see what I did.
First, I studied. And the sleep.
Watch 2NE1 who are like freaking AWESOME.
And then do exams.
That's all. How boring right. Well that is my LIFE. Just now I fell a sleep when I was taking care of Affan and when I woke up, I saw the whole room's wall is full of drawings. My mom is GONNA scold me when she get back.
Let's just wait for that. That's all for now. I know very boring comeback but too bad because you don't own this blog!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
The Suite Life of Zach and Cas
Secondly, I'm so happy because I saw the Season Finale of Supernatural. Must I say that Dean and Castiel looks extremely HOT. Like majorly. I like Castiel when he tried taking Dean away. Damn hot! Okay, let's stop here.
Supernatural's ending really is making me a miserable. Have to wait for another 3-4 months for the next episode. Somebody can just kill me now. That's all for now. Need to study!
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Fame, Performing Art Weekend
You know I only love my toilet. Yes that a new fact about me. So what have I learn from the Weekend. Let me see...
First, stage management is not an easy job according to Pat Gui. According to her, there's a lot of think you need to do and problems to face, but by the end of the day, everything is worth it. According to her, if you're a stage manager, you have to think fast and do a snap decision.
After hearing what she said about it, I don't think I want to be a stage manager. Secondly, I learn all the sound system thingy from Mr. Chong which was fun. I learn a lot about the things such as how to put on a mic on people, the sound system in the hall, all the sound thingy and A LOT MORE.
At some points, I was quite bored with it. Haha. Then I learn about Scenic Design which was very interesting. We were given a task to make a scene based on the script given. It was very complicated and you have to think about every little thing. It was stressful. Luckily there's Audrey. She do all the thinking.
There, I also learn a lot of GAMES. We played a lot of games and it was really fun. The funny part is that me, Alexis and Audrey studied after dinner. Everyone was like, 'What are they doing'
So that's all my weekend. I came back early because there's a 'kenduri' at my house. It was a good kenduri and I think I eat almost everything. I was super duper hungry at that time. So that's all. Now, I'm studying.
I hope that my attention span can last long.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Forever Love
So tomorrow I'll be going to my P.A camp which will be scary again. I'm going to feel so lonely. Hope I won't feel that lonely. So basically, I will be there for the whole weekend. How am I suppose to study?
Aish... So basically that's all for today! Will update once I get back from the P.A weekend! Okay... See you one day!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Smile
And the 2nd thing is that I got probation! I really thought I won't get it so I am super duper happy. And the 3rd thing is that 2NE1 is out and I'm loving the song.
What a wonderful day. Should end it my post now and sleep! Bye.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Treachery
I envy people that are studying. I read people's blog and they keep mentioning about them studying for hours of Chem, Sejarah, Bio, EVERYTHING and a lot more. Why can't I do that. Am I easily distracted?
YES. I think so. I think too easy. Look what's happening. I'm suppose to study and what am I doing, blogging. I procrastinate to much and I shall stop now. I'm serious about this. And no one will stop me.
*evil laugh*
OMG! I feel like reading Love Bugged. There you go distracted again! What's happening to me? Someone help me!!!
Fire
I don't know what to say.
So I keep quiet.
... OMG! I GOT SG WANNABE... IRINA JUST CAME BACK AND I GOT SG WANNABE. I'M HAPPY IRINA IS BACK BUT I'M HAPPIER THAT I GOT SG WANNABE. SORRY IRINA. DIDN'T MEAN TO DO SO. SO IRINA HOW'S KOREA?
... NO NEED TO ANSWER BECAUSE I'M FREAKING AWESOMELY HAPPY! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE PICTURES. I SERIOUSLY LOVE SG WANNABE & IRINA! HAHA...
... BYE EVERYBODY. (THIS IS BY THE INNER ME)
Since the moment of silence have passed, now I shall end my post with thank you for being quiet and let's see who's smart enough to know what is behind this post! Haha
Monday, May 4, 2009
UPDATE!
Here's the latest preview with Park Bom's profile. This is 57s preview. The 45s was CL, the 30s was Dara (Sandara Park) and 15s was MinJi! I just want to show Park Bom's because she's the longest for now.
2NE1 - Fire
And then we have the Woman's Generation/ Forever Love by SeeYa, Davichi and T-Ara. Here's the song....
And lastly, I found this very interesting and nice. So i guess, I should post it here! Haha.
Thank you. Proper post will be later!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Bronze Expedition
And that night we have our orienteering. We kinda got lost (i mean my group) and we end up last. But it was ok. It was still fun. I didn't go the for the nightwalk because I was too tired. Haha. I know, what a reason.
The next day started with the morning exercise. Normal. And then I do all the Land Activities. Flying Fox was fun. Survival cooking too! And then knot tying and obstacles. I suck at obstacles but I proudly say that I go through 6 out of 8 the obstacles. Big clap for me...
And then finish. I know it sound so short but actually, it was the longest thing ever. I thought was there like 3 days already. Time there passes so slow. Haha.
I just finish sleeping so long and now, my whole body itch. I hate that.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Goodbye April
Sigh...
So tomorrow is May. I can see a lot of holidays in May but I'm feeling sad. April have passed and a lot of thing happened such as the Sports Day, Games Carnival, Cheerleading and a lot more. Although I feel sad, I'm still very happy because the main things of 2009 have passed.
The most memorable thing in this month is winning the March Pass. It was a truly memorable thing and I'm proud of it. Winning sure is sweet...
May...
There's exams, expeditions, P.A Weekend and a lot more. Without me realizing, it will be June later. May will be another hectic month which I don't like but I know, I'll create good/ bad memories during May.
With this, I'm saying, Goodbye April. You will be missed. Not to worry you'll come in another year! XD...
Save the World
So I shall talk about Save the World. Save the World is the umbrella society in Cempaka Schools. It's a society that wants to Save the World. So they come out with the usual 3R (Reduce, Reuse, Recycle) and the switch off your air-conditioner for an hour in school. Smart...
So it was normal and I have to say pretty lame. They show us a weird way to reuse things such as use bottle to make signs like 'RECYCLE' which is totally lame. I thought they would show us how to use plastic bottle to make a better thing. Talk about creativity...
Like we keep all the bottles and make signs like your name and then hang it your room. What a smart move Save the World committee members. So I'll stop criticizing about stuff like that and move on.
But I learn something, we need to Save the Earth from everything and make it a happy Earth. Why? Because there's no other planet that we can live in. When they found one (which maybe take a million years) only, we can stop doing all this, OR not.
Click to watch it in youtube because it's nicer and have better quality because my blog crop a bit of the video.
So Talent Time. Here's some video. Bad quality but it's still good. Abigail's performance is for The Save the World it was good. Just gonna post it here. Click to watch it in youtube because it's nicer and have better quality because my blog crop a bit of the video.
Abigail's Tell Me Why
Andrea and Gabriel - Colour of the Wind (Winner of Talent Time 2009)
By the way, I can see the goodbye post coming tonight.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Disturbing
Thump . . . thump . . . thump . . . thump . . .
Feel that?
As it slowly fluctuates, spreading its wings almost too angelically, oxygen and the hell it brings, also known as life, rushes back into the two pink sheets imprisoned underneath the ribcage. The diaphragm moves up – high, above, beyond to make way for the gigantic swoosh of heavy hot breath burning up the walls of the dry throat, finally escaping out through those soft lips.
The lungs try to lie, playing off the discomfort of wavering sheer pain; yet, underneath its façade, it’s losing the battle indefinitely. Trapped and feeling claustrophobic for the first time since it had been borne in this body – it doesn’t want to let go, instinctively.
The blood muscles quench and lash at one another – tightly squeezed and roughed-up in the veins . . . painfully and sparingly trying to regain oxygen. But the heart’s fist is tightening the passage way, and the blood living inside the atria’s can no longer travel as they please, draining the ventricles out of the chambers. Unlike the lungs, the heart is giving up the fight more easily, sufficiently, and . . . forgivingly.
The two vital organs in the body are raging war against one another.
Meanwhile, the rest of the body is confused – wanting answers for the sudden interruption. Everything was fine an hour ago, running smoothly like any other day, so what was going on? Cells screaming, blood thrashing into one another; the bodily order was now completely thrown off. Everything starts scrambling . . . trying to get into contact with the brain. But there is no response.
The brain has been put to ease long before the body realized that it was being robbed – murdered. The mind has already fled. There’s nothing that can help it; nothing to interfere because nature is taking its course. Too bad the body hasn’t realized – the brain wanted it.
Throbbing . . . scathingly, the trembling hands trace up to the neck that is screaming, howling, in pain but still very much alive – unconquered. The constant throbs spread from the neck down, igniting jolting sharp and fiery pains at the shoulder blades. The thickly deepened line scrawled across the neck glints in the dark light of the bathroom. The rope; fat, nasty brown and coarsely abrasive did not make it happen. It was too weak and the neck was now sneering at it, making fun of how evil it really wasn’t – making fun of how it was all talk.
The rope did not conquer the neck.
The first attempt to die has failed.
There has to be another way.
. . . Step . . . Step in . . . warm . . . so warm . . . water is gushing in layers from the handle into the tub, spilling clumsily down onto the luminescent tiles. It trickles into the Liverpool to join the heap of wetness. Purely evanescent and so clear that even the blurry, negative photograph that the eyes captures confirm how shallow the tub really is.
The legs, beautiful and wise from all the years of holding up the body, steps in . . . turns . . . and guides it down.
Water . . . warm water . . . from the curvature of each big toe, to the bent of the knees, to the shapely pelvic bone, and finally the large rush of the body of water engulfing the longitude of the neck – it eats up the body. Minutes . . . hours . . . eternity . . . hell, what is time when this is all over?
Waterlogged, the left wrist floats to the surface only to be raped by the fingers on the right hand. In and out, intertwining in-between the gap where each finger is positioned – they are saying their last goodbyes.
The left hand draws up the knife that is gleefully happy to be doing something it was made for, almost loses its balance in its excitement; it smiles at the wrist like a lover, seductively. Poised, ready to strike.
So alive . . . the dark green veins residing deep inside the flesh are . . . breathtaking beautiful . . .
Sharp, cold, and plain blade . . . the knife lands on top of the wrist dexterously like a butterfly. Compared to the beautiful wrist, it was so mediocre – it didn’t deserve to be in the presence of such a beautiful wrist, but there it was – ready. Attack!
Inhale . . .
The diaphragm floats down . . . .
The heart thumps in symphony . . . .
Silence flows into the ears . . . deafening the ear drums.
The stomach tightens in rhythms.
Exhale . . .
Tip of the knife grazes down, kissing the wrist like a long-lost lover. It slides across the butter-like skin never hesitating and cooing – almost singing a sweet melody. Taking apart the skin cells that lie above the vein, it stops at the end of the poised wrist that showed no sign of wanting it to stop. Splitting apart lives on the wrist - the loud howls of the skin cells resonated in angst.
“Ahh . . .” Exhale . . .
“Some people have problems while others have issues. The unfortunate ones are the ones that have both.”
The mouth opens to allow a deep rumbling moan that had been suppressed all this time. The mind suddenly flashes in rapid pace, one after the other – One. Two. Three. Distorted images run rampant, cutting across the tranquility.
“It's easier to die than to live with this pain . . . ."
Grip. The hands have latched onto something, perhaps the sides of the tub, forcing the natural reflexes to subdue as they started fighting back - wanting to live. The body’s piercing scream of STOP goes unnoticed. Pain shoots, bursting like thousands of bright lights, sprinkling all over like remnants.
“I love how you make me feel like there's hope in this crazy world .”
Platelets . . . red platelets of blood surging and flowing thickly from the vein that had burst. Bright red flow, thick and circular in groups; sensually, they coil around the wrist to replicate a form of a bracelet. Drip Drop. Splatter spread.
"I'm going to take you far away tomorrow. It'll only be the two of us."
The lucid, iridescent water is now tainted with that red foreign substance that gives life. Nothing is pure or innocent anymore . . . The Pain . . . The body is roaring in high-pitched operatic sound but the mind is asleep. The legs kick, sending water trickling down the side of the tub’s own body even more; the right wrist is now handicapped – but the left hand is holding onto the knife with a vengeance still.
Inhale . . .
Exhale . . .
The lungs keep pace as the heart quickens all of a sudden . . .
Blood . . . blood everywhere . . . blood spreading like an epidemic in this contained area.
Panic . . . swirls . . . loud screams . . . white flashes, snapping different shades . . . HARD . . . beating . . . . no . . . panic . . . blood . . . convoluted . . . rise . . . breathe in . . . let it out . . .
Sigh . . . relief . . .
Repeat: it was over. It’s over. It’s over. It’s over.
This bathroom – this random bathroom that held no meaning whatsoever, this bathroom that wasn’t glamorous or sensible, this worthless bathroom is now and forevermore the mark of something significant. Now, only the sounds of trickling water from the tub and the silent suffering of a soul can be heard. Otherwise, nothing else.
The squish, squash, slash of water rocks the tub . . . in and out . . spilling wildly with glee – those red platelets, blood, devours the body. The back, so strong and smooth meets the bottom of the tub for the first time, and embraces it. The smile flees from those beautiful lips – like the moon fleeing from the sun . . .and the eyes, those misty windows, shuts forever but not before a visible liquid drop trickles out . . . a tear . . . the water now completely swallows the face and drags down the body underneath, fulfilling - burying the now corpse under it.
Distorted and painful.
But successful.
The soul leaks out, soars. It looks back with mild regret and temptation to give it just one more time. But that body, that pitiful body that everyone in the whole entire world saw it as, judged it as, and criticizes it as . . . abused it as.
“I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
No way.
Never again.
The soul takes flight.
And what is left?
But just a body. A body with a brain - a mind that remembers all those horrible memories. The soul doesn't take the body along with it, thus the soul will have no brain to remember. The soul will start over, find a new home, forget everything. Somehow.
“I'm in so much pain love. I'm so sorry for leaving you like this . . . .”
Credits: Solangel.
Good Person
But I can't do anything. I shall just look at the months passing slowly. Without me knowing, June will be on the way. It will be so fast that it makes me sad. Why? Because I still want to cherish my life. Only God knows how long I'm going to stay in this world.
At this rate, I think I'll die really soon. So what happen today? Um.... I don't know. Haha. I bought my Save The World T-shirt. I don't know why I put it in Green. Haha. So tomorow is Talent Time. Can't wait to see. Go Andrea!
Haha. By the way, Andrea, when you're reading this please go online or something. Need to let you read something funny. Like major funny. haha
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Peace, Love and Ice-Cream
Let me think... NOTHING. I just realized that the more I blog, the more I reveal about my boring life. I can see why there's little people reading my blog (not that I will know).
What did I discover today. Let me think. Oh yeah. I make a quiz, 'How well do you know me in Facebook' and I realize that I don't reveal myself so much. So here's a fact about me, 'I love my computer so much', 'I like to take what people really wants', 'I love ORANGE and RED (this fact maybe new to you but it's not for me', 'I love to go to Mac Store to buy all the software (when I have money).
So this will be a hint if you didn't answer my questions yet. AND I love SG Wannabe's songs. By the way, do I look like a pop person? because everyone thinks so. I can't wait for the holidays but there's so many things coming up that I want to take a break. Weird weird me.
By the way, I can see May is coming nearer. Not long after this, I will write my goodbye April. How sad is that... I just wrote goodbye March.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Shocking News
So today, I'm suppose to do something but I end up doing nothing, as usual. Still can't get over the fact that we won march pass. Haha. Ok. I'll stop bragging. Haha.
I think that's all for now. Still very sleepy and don't really know what to do!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Sports Day!
And the highlight for today is, Beruang got 1st for March Pass. Isn't that just wonderful. I think getting burnt by the sun this year is totally worth it. And I have to say that we can't do it without the captains.
I'm very proud of myself and marchers. FINALLY, we can get a collar pin for that. My second BLUE collar pin. I'm super happy.
I can't wait to watch Summer Whispers. But have to wait for my sister. I need to sleep now. Still tired.
Nowadays, it's so funny. After I drink 1 cup of coffee, I'll sleep straight away. It's like coffee makes me sleep. Very very funny thing.
That's all for now.
Friday, April 24, 2009
100th Post
I seriously have nothing to share. It's my life that I want to share. But I feel bored with my life so in many ways, I'm trying to show people and make people bored with my life by creating a blog. How totally lame excuse to make a blog.
So my 100th post will not be a cool cool post. I just want you guys to realize that when you're reading a blog, like mine. You're totally wasting your time. For me, when I read people's blog, I will always think things like "I'm suppose to study. What am I doing?"
Or something like that. But I realised that I'm happy to know about that person's life through their blogs. But somehow, I can't share my life as interesting as the others did. So I'm thinking, how do I do that?
I think, by doing simple things like making your post nicer by putting pictures will make it better. But I think it's LAME. So I decided to just keep it this way. I like it this way. So if you don't want to read, then don't.
By the way, Nubi you need to show me how to find nice names for my title. Your titles in your blogs are just nice. I also read all you old posts. I realized how much time flies. It's so fast. And I don't want my life to past just like that.
So I decided to do something memorable in my life. By doing something different makes me special and better than the others. So I should do that.
I don't know why my posts are so wisdomy. Maybe my wisdom tooth are coming out. Like seriously.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Diary of A Student
Maybe some may experience extra stress because they take things to seriously like my sister but when you see it, we will experience the same thing. We need to go to school, study for exams, go back home do homework and do extra things that sometimes you hate.
Therefore, I'm grateful that I'm going through what everyone's going through. Some people want to be in my place because they are not given the opportunity to study and go through all this. And I'm sorry to them because I'm not giving it to them.
It's true sometimes I want to be free from all this. But I realized this and very thankful. So I'm not complaining! But I think I will complaint once in a while. If not, I'm not a human. I will be some stupid robot.
Speaking about robots, I watched this one music video about robots and I totally like the concept.
That's all for today. This is sure a WISE post. I think my wisdom tooth is growing. HAHA. So that's all for today.
And I totally love Sg Wannabe now.
Friday, April 17, 2009
A Gift from SG Wannabe
So today was a okay okay day. Not that great and not that bad. It's just that today was slightly better than usual but not GREAT. Okay, I'm blabbering.
I actually don't know what to write about. It's just that my head is blank right now. This month is sure a GREAT month because 2PM, A'STAR1, After School, SG Wannabe and Younha's Comeback.
I love All of them.
It's a blessing. After the Sports Practice and the stress due to the fact that mid year is like 2 to 3 weeks away, I think this is a blessing. When you watch SG Wannabe's performance, I feel so HAPPY and I don't know. Haha.
SO that's all. I love my blog's title. I'm sorry for the very ugly layout! Haha
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Honey
Well not really the whole day.
I don't know what to say.
I'm doing my homework.
And that's all.
Gonna play Trauma Center after this.
Yay.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
ANDY File
I want to thank everybody in Andy for this wonderful file.
Together with the pen and the notebook.
The profile all are really nice.
I really love this present.
I'm not mad or sad that it's late because I know you guys are preparing something special for me.
You guys always do.
So thank you guys.
Not only for the file but for all the time you guys tolerate me.
I know I'm bad all the time.
But I'm thankful that you guys can tolerate it.
I'll try not to be bad.
Especially to NuBi.
Haha.
And I damn love A.N.D.Y Entertainment.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Cinderella Man
I seriously want to watch Cinderella Man. The storyline is so awesome and I seriously like how the plot works. So that's why. And I love the OST. Can't wait for it.
Here's the teaser.
Teaser 1
Teaser 2
So that's all for today. I need to do my homework.
And i want to share the lyrics of Map the Soul. I like the way it is.
i saw you smile, then i smile
i was straight blown away
mesmerized by your beauty from your feet to your hands
how could one be so beautiful i don't understand
heaven sent, god's gift without a doubt in my mind
sometimes i wonder why our paths decided to collide
we started off as perfect strangers
boy meets girl, infatuation to love
now you're my whole entire world
destiny taps me on the back -- saying hello
but really it was your touch
no and i'll never let you go
then you spoke i never heard a voice so sweet
heavenly
and from her words man i knew this girl was deep
just like me
with times to worry and times to play
we'll sit and stress over life or just burn the day away
i know for sho' in our past life
we had to be friends livin and dyin together
knowin that we would meet again
it's just a blessin to have you in my life
i was destined, to be with you
my privilege so amazing no question
and i'm knowin, soon enough we'll get where we're goin
just thinkin about it i can feel my heart growing
am i trippin? or is it that i finally see?
i don't know, but my heart is saying that you're the one for me
please believe me, i'm exactly where i wanna be
this rhyme is written from my heart to you
sincerely
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
(tablo)
you turn a cocooned soul into a butterfly
and i, lose control, can never turn aside
you shine like summer skies, like when a lover lies next to me and says to me
you make me wonder why
you are a beautiful mystery
every note carved into musical history
assimile, metaphor, words not enough to
entrust to you,
trust that its true
we must have approved while we asked for evidence
dwell on past and sentiments, but we bask in eminence
every moment every day, busy getting paid away, the soul fades away into a grainy shade of grey
i pray, that you'll listen to what i say,
cause i feel like a missing shoe
this is to everything that you are,
the wild earth, a child's birth, sun moon and the stars
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
check it out
so i ask what would i be without you?
like stevie without wonder
hunger without food
a sheep without a shepherd
a sleep without your message
that despite the skeptics that i knew were true
and i knew, that there was more to life
and i grew, livin for the light
i took my answers, combined them with yours
it made life exciting but it closed some doors
with the crisis my life accelerated and deflated
sunk to the bottom, then elevated till i faded
but you always had my back though
when kids threw rocks at me, i'm on stage rappin -- still
i see kids without loveit brings tears to my soul
but why they always dry up
the world's gone bonkers
your heart in fear
and as long as i believe
you're the reason i'm here
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
no reason to live, without you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
L-O-V-E-U, i was made to be with you
made to be with you
made to be with you
Friday, April 10, 2009
Surprise.
What I do? Playing Cooking Mama. I just realized how boring my life now. I hope tomorrow can be more interesting. I feel so tired of life now. Like majorly. I don't know if I can cope with my studies and what's happening now.
OMG! I feel so stress. Maybe it's because of my marks and of course , the very hectic schedule everyday.
Sports practice, sports day and sports rehearsal. Even the words makes me so tired. Why can't I have a holiday now?
I'm so so tired! Why am I complaining? I just feel like it. I don't know what to do because my brain feels so so full. I'm thirsty. Need to go and have a drink!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Happy Birthday Andey
This is the only decent picture of the two of us. That's why I post it.
Finally 17 tomorrow.
I hope you will have fun tomorrow.
Don't be sad for being a year older.
You know that only one year is left for you to be legal.
And you know what,
there's a lot of things to do with Top when you're 18.
So accept it as a blessing.
And have fun with it.
Although it will be SPM year for you, I know you will have fun with this year.
And enjoy life like you always do.
Why do I sound so intellectual.
Well, because I AM!
Haha.
So,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
And I'm glad to say that I'm the very first one to post in my blog.
So have fun.
The reason why I post it up so early because I'm scared I will forgot about it.
So that's why.
That's all for today.
Got loads of homework to do.
Bye.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I don't know what to put as a title
And my face makes me look like I'm a mangsa kebakaran. So tomorrow I'm going to school. There's sport practice. How I dread sports practice and I have P.E after that. I will be burned again. Joy! That will be fun.
I'm going to look like my brother after this. How bad can the world be? Haha. So tomorrow is school so I have to do my homework. Arghhh... HOMEWORK.
By the way, I just realized there's this layout. I love the colour. I know, I'm RANDOM!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Back to the Real World
Now it's back to normal timetable with normal class. And of course, homework. I feel like killing myself. Like major seriously. I didn't do my homework and forgot that I have homework. I don't even know where's my homework.
And now I'm thinking. Am I going to do my homework?
Obviously I will say no straight away.
So I decided not to do my homework and sleep.
I'm so darn tired.
I never run so much in my life and I don't think I want to do it again.
So yea... Got to go now.
A bed is waiting for me.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Games Carnival
Today is my first time playing something in Games Carnival. We got last but I think we had a lot of fun. It's so fun to go after the ball. So yea...
I actually don't know what to say because I'm so effing tired. I slept just now but still not enough. Got the feeling that I will do my homework the day before school is back to normal!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Today
I really need to talk to Andey about something...
Haha. Update her.
Today is pretty dull considering that nothing happened.
Well, now I'm trying to force myself to do my homework because I just feel like doing an I-movie.
so for now, if anyone wants us to do any video, you are obviously...
NOT
welcome.
Haha. One good April fool before it ended.
Just need to let this out, I'm terribly stress about Physics PEKA just now.
It's like I don't know.
And of course, something else.
Only Nurain would know!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Goodbye
This is extremely sad.
I remember it like it was yesterday I wrote bye February.
And then now, I have to say goodbye to March.
March is an extremely extremely hectic month.
With the Mid Semester Exams (which I pretty much don't know what to say)
and of course, the Mid Semester Holiday aka HEAVEN!
I mean, I can't compare it to heaven but in this world, holiday can be counted as Heaven!
So tomorrow is April.
APRIL'S Fool! Haha.
I don't think I can do any trick tomorrow since everyone knows my trick.
Haha.
The ending note of March is with the House Deco and first day of Games Carnival.
House Deco, BERUANG got second.
Proud of them.
They did a good job and getting second is not that bad.
Because we know that we're gonna with GAMES CARNIVAL!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
April is sure a busy month.
So with this, bye MARCH.
And today is BOF last episode.
Bye BOF!
Monday, March 30, 2009
Dandy Manddy Monday
Today is pretty much relaxed. I mean I don't feel so stress except my back hurts today. Got a lot of homework but I feel like doing i-movie.
I got the new I life and I seriously love it.
And I decide not to blog so long. Too bad guys.
I have no mood.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I went to Zoo Negara
And decided not to go there anymore.
But it was fun actually.
I'm totally being so paradox.
Earth Hour just passed an I participated.
Quite proud of myself.
Big Clap for me.
Disappointment
Of course, there's the good part where Dean is a manager or something but he's HoT. That's for sure...
So, I'm going to Zoo Negara...
Friday, March 27, 2009
Earth Hour
Here's a video of it. Watch it and get inspired to join in. It's a freaking easy task. If you can't do it, you're just weird... Just bring you finger to the main switch and switch off everything for an hour. An hour is just a short period. If everyone can do it, why us, Malaysians can't.
SO let's join in...
It's not like I'm joining. Haha
Weekends
I love the word Friday and Saturday. So, today is basically nothing. I think everyone was so dead because we were tired of the exams and we don't even feel like studying today. There's a pile of homework waiting for me in my bag.
Yesterday, I heard a nice song from Davich song battle. For the first time, I heard Girls Generation by SNSD sung by someone who can actually sing. And Hae Ri is so pretty now. She can even pass for SNSD.
Back to what I said, Hae Ri sings this song called Oh My Goodness and Oh my Goodness it was a nice song. I'm addicted to it. Although it's trot, I seriously love it. Dam Bi's new song is nice also. And of course, I love Someday's songs. It's nice and they can really sing. Unlike some Secret Gay Code.
Haha. Nurain tricked by me. So today, I was suppose to go Dina's Brother's Tahlil. I was ready and all but then my maid told me that my driver went back already. I'm sorry Dina... Do not worry I'll pray for him at home.
I don't feel like sharing anything but I have a lot of things to share. First time I heard Lollipop by 21. 21 is the new girl big bang. It's 21 because apparently, in black jack no. 21 is never lose. It's quite cool. A name very meaningful. Unlike some group that just put names like Rising Gods from The East. Are they some friggin Pagan god?
And I heard a very funny thing today but I'm only gonna post it in my Hate Blog. That's all for today. Sorry if I dissapoint my loyal readers than want more from me.
Supernatural, here I come. Wait for me Cas and Dean of course. Games Carnival is so near and I don't think I want to play anything. See first, I think. Haha. Tomorrow is Saturday and I can hear the Zoo Negara calling for me. Can't wait to see ma brothers and sistas.